A complete 180

Marlo has always been the most mellow, easy going, happy-go-lucky baby.  She's the type of baby I can sit down and she'll independently play with toys while I do laundry or cook dinner, or write a long email.  With the exception of her refusal to accept a bottle, she's been such an easy baby.  So easy that I've even felt a little guilty thinking (and remembering with Liam) that babies are more difficult. 

But, alas, the tables have turned.  My darling, sweet girl has turned into a high maintenance 1 year old.  She is going through a major mommy phase right now.  She doesn't even want Joe to hold her.  She immediately starts screaming and crying if I am not the one holding her - ugh - so exhausting and annoying.  She even cries when I put her down to do things in the house.  If I want to keep her happy, she's on my hip 24/7.  And she's a 22 lb. baby.  This all started about 4 or 5 days ago.  And she's been waking up between 3 - 4 am each night a not falling back to sleep.  Last night I couldn't take it anymore. I was so tired and I knew Joe was exhausted so I put her in her crib and let her cry. I had the monitor on so I wasn't getting much sleep listening to her.  But I thought she'd for sure pass out at some point. Nope.  She cried from 3:30 - 6 am!!!  Granted, her crying decreased but she was still awake, sitting up in her bed, and crying when I came in at 6 to get her. Oh, and she pooped herself.  That's her go to.  If I leave her in her crib to cry she will poop herself.

She's cutting one of her top teeth so I'm hoping this is just a bad teething and mommy infatuation stage.   But it's weeks like this that makes me think Joe and I are nuts for wanting more kids.  So, I think we might be holding off on that right now.  I'm so tired I can't imagine throwing another in the mix.  I think one day we will have another, but maybe when we're getting more sleep and I'm not walking around like a zombie.

Another thing is that I can't imagine planning a pregnancy right now.  The effort seems way too much. One of my friends suggested that I just let it happen on it's own.  God bless her heart, but we have a 3 year old and a 1 year old!! Our kids wake up usually by 5:30 am (6 if we're lucky) and I'm still breastfeeding one of them!! How often does she think we're getting down in this house?? My OBGYN said that we should have sex 5 times around my fertile time if we want to get pregnant and I seriously had to stop myself from laughing.  Gone are the days of having sex 5 times over the course of three days. I mean, we'd literally have to hire someone to watch the kids while we had sex and that is just weird, really weird.  If there are parents of a 3 year old and a 1 year who are having sex 5 times a week, then that's awesome - they are most likely super heroes or something rather.

So, that's the update folks.  A bit of a 180.